Transitioning to Another Season

I miss my Youth group days,

• when my friends & I would only hope for a love life because God is still molding us to be the right women for the person we’ll love & God will bring,

• when we could only think of the places we’ll go after earning money,

• when we would only be praying for the subjects that we needed to pass,

• when I would meet with my ladies on a Saturday to share what God had revealed to me during the past week & enjoy my Sabbath day every Friday,

• when my college buddies & I enjoy the night with the latest drama of our lives.

A lot of things has changed now. Some received what we prayed for, some continues to wait. We grew as individuals. Some of us are earning money and traveling for work & not just for pleasure. Subjects turned into presentations and meetings for the bosses. We’re dating great people whom God faithfully placed in our lives. We lost our sense of melancholic characteristic but the strength to overcome recurring problems developed. We may not be able to meet on a weekly basis for a small group but we’re involved with another small groups that help us gain more insight about the real world and diversities of people. You see, as the teacher in Ecclesiastes mentioned that there is a season for everything. If I could turn back time, I wish I’d never looked forward in the future as much as I did. I wish I enjoyed it. When the clock was ticking and we were about to leave our beloved university, I felt nothing. In my mind, I was hoping to get over it and move on.

I realized that our time should be spent wisely. Be wise by making yourself better instead of enjoying a company of people who will eventually pull you down and drag you to struggle in life. Stop quitting, take heart, and commit to plans that will develop work ethics in you. Don’t take your time and other’s time for granted.

Lastly, make a habit that will make you look forward to spending time with God. The more you experience God, the more you’ll say, “No regrets!”

Solution to Depression

One thing that helped me survived suicidal episodes of my life is whenever I pray and read the Bible. It all ended when God showed a dream and gave me a verse that rebuked me so hard,
Be not overly wicked, neither be a fool. Why should you die before your time? (Ecclesiastes 7:17)
Then, someone I love told me angrily after complaining about life for so many times, “You want to die? I’ll help you do it.”
It opened my eyes and made me feel like Depression itself was talking to me. I got so angry at it that I want to punch it. Deep inside I protested, “I want to live. I’m not dying!” 
When depression comes and tries to steal your joy, hit it back and don’t swim with it. From now on, I will never allow it in my heart, mind, and soul.

Pressing On Toward The Goal: My Heart After Failing LAEs

Taken during the EducationUSA’s Law School Fair in DLSU 20 April 2016

Apostle Paul said in Philippians 3:14, “I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.” This is the verse that I’m holding so dear in my heart after the recent Law Admission Exams (LAEs).

Background Story:

Ever since I started studying Legal Management in DLSU, passing a law school right after graduation would always be in my prayer list. I would pray, read the Bible, and fast for it. I dedicated 4 years of my life (and I’m still praying for it!) for a law school that God prepared for me.

I know very well that it is my calling to be a servant of my God and country in the Judicial Department. In a prophesy spoken to me a few years ago, God further revealed in me that “I’m angry of injustice.” It is true; I hate how injustice affects the lives of people. I, myself, know the effects of it. This motivates me to know the law even more. I was so sure about pursuing a Law degree.

Come January 2015, I, once again, prayed and fasted for God to reveal what law school I should go to. I honestly believe that through His small and still voice that I heard, “U.P. Law.” (Trust me. I was astonished too.) He didn’t exactly say that I will go there as a law student but He answered my question of, “Lord, what law school should I pray for?” However, as I spent time with Him over the last few years and asked regarding law school, God would only say, “Just pray for it.”

And I did, alongside with the people who have faith in God and in me.



Now, I already failed U.P. LAE and San Beda’s LAE. Both are respectable law schools and my only choices.

San Beda College of Law released their results first. I cried non-stop for half a day because of it. What can I do? I was disappointed. I knew I did well. I heard the lies of the enemy so clearly:

Worst student.

Oh, those words stayed in my head longer than God’s comforting words! My spiritual family and friends comforted and encouraged me in my distress. Most importantly, they prayed for me when I couldn’t.

By His grace, I got over it after a few hours. The tears stopped coming out. I was able to receive His joy. I was surprised by the strength that I developed through it.

Two weeks later, U.P. LAE’s results came out. God, with His incredible humor, broke it to me gently about my failure.

It was a Sunday night when I saw a post with names and people were congratulating my acquaintances. I thought the names were for Ateneo LAE; I was checking who passed within my circle of friends until I realized that it was a list for U.P. LAE. I panicked and shouted, “THIS IS FOR U.P. LAE. I DIDN’T PASS U.P. LAE.”

Astounded; it took me a week to understand what happened. Yes, people were able to talk to me and I was in a mellow mood for days. I was physically and emotionally fine. However, Saturday came and I broke down in front of my Bible study group (DGroup, as we call it).

I realized that I was hurt – by God. It was hard for me to admit that I cannot fully trust God anymore. To me, instead of seeing Him as a promise-keeper, I was starting to see Him as another person who breaks promises. I also felt like I couldn’t rely on Him anymore because I believed in His promises as I surrendered my plans, and look at what happened. I was bruised by wrestling with God. I was tired.

His light enriched my darkened heart and mind as He spoke through my DGroup. Revelations poured out. One of my favorite quotes from my sister in Christ during that time was “What if God is more glorified in your pain rather than in your success?”

From then on, I stopped whining.



When God commands, do it. Expect nothing in return but do it because you love Him.

I learned the hard way. I wasn’t able to see that my dream of becoming a lawyer has become an idol for me. I expected so much from His promises and forgot why I was praying for it.

I do not know why God allowed this to happen or what I should do right now as I wait for His next instructions but I’m grateful. I’m thankful for everything. I wouldn’t know what strength is until I didn’t see my name on the lists of LAE results. I wouldn’t appreciate the people who truly waited and stood with me as I prayed and took exams. I wouldn’t understand rest if the anxieties of the future didn’t bother me. Lastly, I wouldn’t be able to comprehend and experience more of His wonderful character without this incident.

Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego when they were about to be sent to a fiery furnace by King Nebuchadnezzar who ordered everyone to bow down before his gods said, “If this be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and he will deliver us out of your hand, O king. But if not, be it known to you, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the golden image that you have set up.” (Daniel 3:17-18 ESV) I pray that my faith will be like theirs; that even if God wouldn’t do anything about my requests, my faith will not waver.

LORD, You are good. I thank You for Your crafty works in my life. 


Thank you very much for reading!
Dana A.

A Fresh Start

If you can remember, I used to blog in However, life threw its greatest bombs at me to the point that I couldn’t even speak up for myself.

Now, I’m at my greatest state. I am surrounded with great people and I’m currently expanding my horizons through different experiences.

This wouldn’t be possible if God left me. He is indeed a God who is faithful to His words. If He says, “I will never leave you or forsake you,” He will fulfill it until the end of time. Truly, God’s grace is sufficient in my weakness.

So, here I am, writing again; trying to exhaust everything within me through typing words and composing sentences. With all of my heart, I hope that you’ll find my blogs insightful and worthy to be read.


Dana A.